nobody's fault but mine

  • Nov. 29th, 2011 at 12:27 PM
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- finish baby pictures WIP
- Big Bang claims (Dec. 10)
- illustration for December issue of [ profile] bb_shousetsu (Dec. 17)
- [ profile] dream_holiday triptych (Dec. 19)
- [ profile] insearchtion (Dec. 26-Jan. 6)
- illustrations for [ profile] sho_no_tabi's Big Bang (post-January 27)
- illustrations for someone's Big Bang (post-January 27)

- Hunger Games fanart
- Cantos, City of Bells concept art
- medical cryo-casket concept art

I read this out to Husband and his response was '...and a new boyfriend!'

oh god, what am I going to do with myself

Oh and also I got a new haircut and I think it's pretty rad:

$5 print sale!

  • Nov. 15th, 2011 at 5:02 PM
neomeruru: (i like it this much)
Remember I mentioned that I'd be selling prints soon? That time is now!

Under the cut is a selection of prints of my Inception and Avengers art, with some other stuff in there for flavor. Check it out, hope you like it, let me know if you have any questions!

click for available prints )


this is only a test

  • Aug. 27th, 2011 at 1:34 AM
neomeruru: (fuck this shit!)
A keen little bird has told me that my images have all suddenly disappeared, and I am blaming this scheduled outage at my alma mater, who still handle my webhosting. Images and other things I have thrown on there over the years should be working again by tomorrow.

Until then, if you absolutely need to look at my collection of blood and dicks art, you can find it over on my deviantART page as usual.

Man, a day-long service outage feels like seven years in internet time!

I've been looking at getting my own hosting, but my major stumbling block is the domain name. I am secretly terrible at words, you guys; I just know how to put them in the right order, not make them sound good!


notes from the outback

  • Aug. 14th, 2011 at 10:37 PM
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I wrote a thing on [ profile] butterflythread's Opposite Day Meme! It's something that I've had kicking around in my head for a while, but never actually sat down to put into words. I like writing! I also super hate it, ugh, it's so stressful, how do you writers do it?!

I haven't posted anything personal in a while, so sorry for that! The truth is, I haven't been doing anything interesting lately. I've been spending my time doing art for [ profile] ladysisyphus's upcoming Shousetsu Bang Bang -- I'm really psyched for one of them, as my friends have no doubt realized as I am SHOWING IT OFF TO EVERYONE. And I've also started one for [ profile] jibrailis, so come August 22 I'll have three pictures to post, hurrah.

I've also picked up an illustration for the [ profile] cap_ironman Big Bang, which I have dubbed SUDDENLY PARENTS. No inroads on that one yet. And then of course my Big Bang with [ profile] sho_no_tabi and also I signed up to claim a story as well, because I apparently just cant get enough.

In between arts I have been completely failing to go out and enjoy the summer -- I have this thing where, during the summer, I am perfectly happy to sit inside in the dark, and by the time October rolls around I am SUPER UPSET WITH MYSELF that I wasted the summer away, even though it was a conscious choice at the time. Though, this week I did get up to Cultus Lake (hi Cathy!) with my family. It was the first time I'd been to the lake, and the water was great except for that everyone got swimmer's itch, and I saw a bald eagle catch a fish and take it up to its nest and that was pretty amazing, and I ate a lot of marshmallows and generally had a good time.

Confidential to people who gave me their addresses for postcards: the images are at the printers and I should be getting those out shortly! Thanks for your patience. <3

an unholy matrimony of art and science

  • Jul. 12th, 2011 at 11:17 AM
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This question is totally serious. It is totally legit research. It may or may not become a picture sometime in the near future. Possibly for a certain date which is coming up very, very quickly for an anniversary we all share.


Who's doing what to whom?

Anon comment if you need to.

FOR SCIENCE. And for art.

kink bingo!

  • Jun. 1st, 2011 at 3:23 PM
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I got my kink bingo card!



we're off to see the wizard, the wonderful wizard of kink )

For those not in the know, as I was before just this morning when [ profile] anatsuno incepted me along with [ profile] ilovetakahana, [ profile] krytella, and [ profile] persephone_il, Kink Bingo is basically exactly what it says on the tin. You request a randomized bingo card for yourself, and challenge yourself to make a BINGO (and more) with the kinks on your card. You can make them for any fandom and nearly any way you can, not just fic and art but also picspams, reclists, podcasts, essays... whatever you can think of, practically.

It starts today and runs officially until September, though you can post afterwards in the amnesty period. You have to finish at least one square, but the ultimate goal is a BINGO and beyond.

I have a lot of stuff on my plate this summer, but I'm sure I can squeeze this in too! What a way to broaden my horizons. My deviantART is going to be... interesting in September.

disjointed notes from today

  • May. 18th, 2011 at 6:06 PM
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So I have no art to give, because I am burnt out like whoa. I finished the [ profile] help_japan auction art for [ profile] mandyloo, and I can post that when I get a response back from her. I quite like it; it's a good likeness of Colin and Bradley, and the background was completely painted. I love painting backgrounds now; I've done it for three pieces now, and it's so nice and easy. But, yes, burn out, and I'll be bowing out of that commission for my waxer because nothing is %*#$ going right on that one and sometimes it's just easier to cut ones losses and move on.

[ profile] platina mentioned the other night on her Livestream that she uses a standard round brush at 20% flow, which is interesting, because so far I've been using a standard round at 50% opacity instead. The difference is incredibly marked, and holy hell, does it make sketching so much easier. I'm really excited at this development and thankful she shared the secret. :)

I took a mental health day today because everyone needs a day to lock themselves in their rooms and eat chocolate and burn incense and generally dislike people for a while, so that's what I did today. My day also included L.A. Noire, which I picked up this morning. It has been getting very high reviews, and so far it is a very solid game. It takes the driving/side quest parts from Grand Theft Auto, the fighting/events from Heavy Rain, and the investigations/interrogations from Phoenix Wright. It's also triggering my immense capability to fuck around on side quests before progressing story quests (see also: Fallout 3, Fallout New Vegas, any western RPG ever made...) which is making it come across as repetitive; this is exacerbated by the obvious burden of so many unlockable outfits, locations, and cars, as well as achievements, at the expense of so few story missions. I find myself doing a lot of driving, which is my least favorite part. You can make your partner drive, but you don't get sidequests, and that makes me itch.

There's a hockey game on tonight and I will be cheering my hardest from my office chair while working on this cross-stitch, which is so close to being done I can almost taste it, and then watching West Wing because it has worked its way under my skin with its exceptional writing and acting. [ profile] kindelingboy, I never doubted you and your recommendations to watch it, but holy crap. What a good call on this one.

jealous of your cigarette

  • May. 17th, 2011 at 3:07 PM
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I bought 105 sticks of incense from the hippie store for $6 -- anyone Vancouver-based probably knows the hippie store of which I speak -- and now my house is filled with magical, art-inspiring smoke. And it lasts forever; this stick has been going for half an hour and it's only gone down an inch, unlike my previous package of incense, which I went through not unlike a chain smoker going through a pack of cigarettes.

Anyway, recent events have reminded me of something that happened to me recently too. Do you know that common plagiarism defense, 'oh, I must have read it sometime in the past and I accidentally recalled it when I was writing'? And you know how everyone knows these people are full of shit? Because they usually are?

Stop the presses, because it actually happened to me while I was drawing something!

I am drawing [ profile] osaraba some gift art because she sent me goodies from her cache of earlobe-stretching supplies, and she requested Eames and Arthur smoking. Great, I thought! So I'll draw Eames and Arthur lighting one another's cigarettes, heads tilted together, maybe from above, dull colours except for the light of the cigare-- wait, that sounds a little familiar, where have I seen that before...


neomeruru: (like a champ)
I can has a list of creative projects:

  1. [ profile] help_japan Merlin/Arthur art for [ profile] mandyloo (colouring)
  2. superhero portrait for Jane (not started)
  3. [ profile] bb_shousetsu June collaboration with [ profile] beeblebabe (sketching)
  4. [ profile] bb_shousetsu August collaboration with [ profile] ladysisyphus (in planning)
  5. A/E smoking gift art for [ profile] osaraba (not started)
  6. typographic cross-stitch (almost done)
  7. mixed-media peacock painting using found materials (materials collection)
  8. workspace redesign (drawing up plans)
  9. possible entry for the hitRECord vinyl art contest (....maybe)
  10. possible collab with [ profile] persephone_il for upcoming fic (so tentative)


awkward beginnings

  • Apr. 8th, 2011 at 7:51 PM
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While unpacking all of our boxes, I uncovered a hidden goldmine: my cache of old sketchbooks. I have a lot of old sketchbooks, almost twelve, thirteen years worth.

There was a lot of cringing from (secondhand? firsthand?) embarrassment going on in my house today, let me tell you. Jesusjosephandmary, I was a self-important, petulant, overdramatic little twat. If anyone ever find the things I've written, they will have to think long and hard about whether to mock me mercilessly or institutionalize me, because I can't believe I grew out of that.

I've wanted to track this down for a while, but behind the cut is the earliest known evidence of my artistic bent -- and I mean, like, this is me expressing something that I really liked, not just drawing because someone gave me a pack of crayons. This is really from one of the first few times I sat down and said, you know what, I'm going to be an artist.

her name was Alexis, and she was my best friend )

So, that's mine! I challenge all the creative types on my friendslist to unearth the first thing they ever created. School assignments don't count, crayon scribbles don't count; I want to see the thing you made when you sat down and said, self, I am going to be a maker of things. What was it? What did it mean to you? Come on, flist, let's make it a meme. <3

good things come

  • Mar. 30th, 2011 at 1:03 AM
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So I blame [ profile] keelain for this, really, because she courted her friendslist with images of floppy-haired bb!Arthur squirming on Eames' lap while trying to study, and also this is [ profile] persephone_il's fault too for posting THIS PICTURE (NSFW) shortly afterwards and giving me the inspiration. And you guys, you know I do not go for the bb trope, but I do go for lap-sitting-but-actually-penetration porn, apparently, and it's all come on, yeah, finish studying data-mining that corporation's staff records and I'll fuck you proper. Aww, yeah.

So I drew porn, and despite my big talk, this is the first thing I've drawn where people are legit fucking, omg, so that's kind of cool. Husband looked over my shoulder at the lineart phase, and his only comment was 'this is your first picture with penetration in it'. Fuck yeah, I married the right one.

Anyway, without further ado:

And in case you missed the opening paragraph(s), BEHIND THE CUT, MEN ARE FUCKING.

delayed gratification past the cut )

There is also just a little over a day left to bid on me in the [ profile] help_japan auction! My two auctions are currently very reasonably priced, and open to all subject matter. I am doing one full-colour, full-background commission and one original character bust. Japan's always been close to my heart, so please help me raise money to help the relief effort. <3

deconstruct this

  • Mar. 24th, 2011 at 3:47 PM
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I! AM ALIVE. I promise. We're all moved into the new place and it is fabulous, but we have no internet there so I have to cobble together journal entries while at work! We're hoping to get it all hooked up soon. On the plus side, not having any internet at home make it more likely that I'll buckle down and work on art projects!

Or I might play Sims Medieval. You know, it's up in the air right now.

- [ profile] ladysisyphus's illustration (just started on the flats last night -- home stretch!)
- finish shading for [ profile] i_reversebang aftercare pic
- portrait for my amazingly awesome waxer (still gestating in my head)
- help_japan full illustration (waiting for bids to close)
- help_japan character sketch (ditto)

So I think I can churn through my projects pretty quickly. :)

I also found some time last night to whip up a birthday comic for [ profile] matchsticks_p, who may be the world's only Derrida fangirl. But, I think, if I put much thought to academic RPF, I would slash him with Edward Said, because Said is my homeboy and they would look good together. Look, that's not as tenuous as some slash pairings, okay.

but who was phone?!

  • Mar. 13th, 2011 at 12:08 AM
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You know that feeling you get when you're past the point of no return in a project, and every problem you need to solve has like five subproblems, and you're running out of resources, and it seems like the end of the project is simultaneously coming up too fast and will never get here ever? And all you can think is 'ugh, why did I even start this project?'

There has to be a word for that. In German, probably.

There have been a lot of days recently where I've had to calm myself down by forcibly reminding myself that my problems are not the worst thing in the world right now. Usually, I do this by being thankful that no one I love needed an ambulance today, but actually yesterday my elderly aunt fell and literally bashed her head open on the mantel -- in front of her 9-year-old granddaughter, no less. So I've upgraded to 'at least there's no tsunami'.

Speaking of tsunami, I'll probably be putting myself up for bids at the [ profile] help_japan auction tomorrow! So if you want a personalized commission from me, head on over there tomorrow evening and make your bid!

Art-wise, I've been chugging along at [ profile] ladysisyphus's commission -- she's been really good about letting me do my thing and understanding my post-big-bang burnout, but it's coming along finally and I hope to have that done in a few days. Uh, after the move. We won't have real internet for a few days, so that'll solve the whole distraction problem.

Also, a rec: one of my favorite artists on dA drew some Arthur fanart and it is amaaaaaazing, I am so happy that she drew Inception fanart. We're in your other fandoms, eating all your good artists, nom nom nom.

AND, because I feel really bad about it, I meant to make a shoutout to [ profile] photoclerk in my last icon post, because she was really responsible for coming up with a lot of the words. She's the best muse anyone could ask for and deserves all the kudos, and I did her a disservice by blanking out and forgetting to mention that. D'oh! Thanks!


sticky: art concrit amnesty post

  • Mar. 7th, 2011 at 3:42 PM
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This post used to be a general request for concrit, but I've decided to take the leap and make it a permanent fixture here on my journal.

Please leave me concrit on my art in this post, anonymously if you prefer.

I want to be better, truly, and I know firsthand how useful it is when people express their not-so-positive thoughts about my art.

So! Consider this a concrit amnesty post for every single piece I've ever made and ever will. I really want your concrit, so don't be shy.

ps: draw moar naked Arthur is not concrit, guys <3

Feb. 19th, 2011

  • 5:42 PM
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ffffffffffffguuuuuuuuuuh I am not arting good tonight. Three hours later and not even the sketch is going well. I will obviously never be able to draw original art ever. D:


fanartivation pimping

  • Feb. 16th, 2011 at 11:53 AM
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So there's been this fanart support community that's been passed around my friendslist for a little while, and I wanted to make sure people knew about it too:

I've already jumped in with both feet and started a conversation about what people listen to when they draw, and I would appreciate it if the artists on my list chimed in with their soundtracks! I am actually really interested in what people listen to. I hope to get enough songs to start a Grooveshark playlist people can browse and sample music from.

Starting a community is always a nerve-wracking process -- what if no one joins? What if it never reaches critical mass? I used to sit back and wait for other people to start the discussion, but lately I've just felt the need to wade in and be the person who stirs the pot instead.

And I think that, in fandom, there's tons of support for authors and a built-in fairy godmother/cheerleader by way of the beta system, and there's no corollary for artists. And I'm pretty pleased with the way that in only one post so far people are already discussing amongst themselves and doling our hugs and support, and that's really awesome.

So, yeah, if you're an artist, come on and stop by. The community isn't at critical mass yet and it's kind of exciting to be on the ground floor.

a daily recap because i am interesting

  • Feb. 14th, 2011 at 10:47 PM
neomeruru: (hate and love)
So today I saw some hooligan make off with a woman's purse at the mall. From the way she was shrieking and chasing after him, I'd imagine there was some important stuff in there. And the worst part of it was that everyone just stood around, even when the guy ran right past them. I was too far away, but I wish that I'd seen someone do something.

It just reminded me that even though my day was kind of shitty (fridge broke down, discovered a ding on the car, never enough money), there are people who are having just a world-endingly terrible day. Like, sometimes, when I see an ambulance I feel selfish and a little relieved, because no matter how many things are bothering me right then, I'm not the poor person who needs an ambulance.

So that was my sobering thought for the day. In less depressing news, Husband and I went and surprised our friend at work with some overpriced flowers, because she's the kind of girl who loves little things like that and her husband doesn't do them. We didn't know what unit she worked in, so we stumbled around the hospital for a little while looking for her. I ended up tapping into some, like, genetic memory of hospital architecture, and managed to lead us to the right unit on the first try. Go me! Then we went for dinner and had a very romantic dinner at Quizno's.

At no point did anyone question why a husband and wife duo were buying flowers together, which is too bad because I was totally prepared to reply that we were buying them for our girlfriend. ALAS, no one asked, and so I could not be my lovable cheeky self. You get it instead, flist. I love you.

Also, the best gift anyone could have ever given to me was actually on the Anonmeme, which has all in all been pretty easy-going when it comes to yours truly. Someone commented that my art was their favorite in the fandom, which warms me all the way to my chilly bones and makes those late art nights worth it. I never imagined that anyone would like my stuff ever, so I'm always a little chuffed at the slightest bit of flail. :)

I have been thinking of going through my old sketchbooks and maybe posting my first sketches. They're from Grade 6, I think, which was when I started discovering the joys of drawing as a hobby. I had an original character called Alexis Moon, who was less of a Mary Sue and more of an imaginary role model, and a whole poorly-planned world with, like, four elemental religions and a benevolent Empire and so on, and so on. Then I really started going on this whole art thing in Grade 8, when I sat down on my first day of high school and introduced myself as an artist; with that label on me I started drawing seriously, and the rest is history. Do you think you guys would be interested in seeing stuff like that?

[edited to add, these sketches are in my sketchbooks which are packed away in storage! I should have them when we move in March! <3]

big bang hangover

  • Feb. 14th, 2011 at 12:51 PM
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Proof that I have maybe been eating, sleeping, and breathing Big Bang illustrations for too long (three pieces in four days!), last night I dreamed that I was checking my comments and someone had written "this is terrible, it doesn't even look like Mal, you totally ruined her face."

I woke up strangely frustrated?

Apparently, my subconscious likes to play my worst critic. Even when it doesn't make sense.

I feel a little artistic burnout right now, but at the same time I feel like I should just open up Photoshop and keep going. On the plus side, I am definitely seeing an improvement with each piece. One day I will look back on this time and call it my Renaissance. :D

bang bang whimpers

  • Feb. 10th, 2011 at 2:38 PM
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Because I am, again, a masochist, I volunteered to pinch-hit some illustrations for [ profile] ilovetakahana's big bang, which will be posted on February 14. Which is Valentine's Day, by the way, if you celebrate those kinds of holidays. I don't, thank goodness, though if it involves dessert and cuddling, I am all for it.

I just finished the cover, and it's going into my Big Pile of Things I Can't Post Yet (five pieces and counting!). Today is basically entirely for drawing, which is wonderful because I am just going to sit here, unwashed, in my robe, with terrible bed head, and I will make pretty things, and it is incongruous and delightful.

By the by, the other night when I was wondering what to draw, I ended up with the aftercare piece for the reverse bang. So! Keep an eye out for that one; it and the other piece will be posted on Feb. 19 for claims on Feb. 20. My entry for the [ profile] eames_arthur swap should be posted soon, too. And, my original big bang collab with [ profile] schesinger will be posted sometime between Feb. 20-25.

My life otherwise continues to be utterly boring, seeing as how I have three phases: work, art, and sleep. Husband and I are spending a lot of time at thrift stores and paint stores and etc etc coming up with decorating ideas. It's awesome. Seriously, I missed my calling. When can I just do this art stuff all day, preferably for this strange thing you mortals call money?

an update!

  • Feb. 8th, 2011 at 8:33 PM
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Is it possible to be addicted to drawing? It's been a couple days now since I finished my last pic, and I feel like a junkie. I need a fix. There's a few things I have in my head to draw, but not really the inspiration, so I'm going to open Photoshop and see if I'm pleasantly surprised by the outcome. Times like this I would probably find a photograph and try to trace it, which is what I've been doing lately as practice, and it's actually really improved my faces and hands. Seems like a waste though, when there's so many other things to do!

On my plate now: [ profile] ladysisyphus's art trade, and the deadline for [ profile] bb_shousetsu's steampunk issue is coming up soon. There's also that sleeping beauty pic I was working on in December, and a male Rapunzel that's been living in my head, A/E fucking in a bathtub full of money, some indulgent blowjob-and-handholding fluff, and the aftercare piece I'd planned to do as my second piece for [ profile] i_reversebang.

I showed a recent piece to an older colleague, and he was like, that's really good, you should send me the link to the stuff you have online. Which, I mean, hell. There's only a small amount of frontal nudity on my dA... D: Reminds me that I really would like to get some webspace and a domain name of my own, as my university account will expire soon, I'm sure.

In other news, today I met up with [ profile] kindelingboy and he accompanied me to this tasting menu lunch thing I had to set up for the awards dinner we do in April. The food was so good, especially the ginger creme brulee, oh my god. Sometimes my job involves stuffing envelopes and mail merges, and sometimes it involves celebrities and catered food. It's kind of weird like that.

My time has also been run over by the Decorating Train, which is super exciting. Husband has deferred all colour choices to me and I have gone wild. Local people, I'm still on the hunt for a papasan chair, a couch, table lamps, a coffee table, and end tables for our red-and-beige living room. The scheme for the living room is, unofficially, 'like a gypsy wandered in and exploded'. So, you know, if you know anyone who's getting rid of some things, I'm your girl.



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