January 26th, 2012

big news and grr news and wheee news

  • Jan. 26th, 2012 at 11:19 PM
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Good news first! It's exciting news, actually! Today I was accepted into a certificate program at a local art university, Emily Carr University of Art and Design. I'll be doing a program they recently started offering for folks who are interested primarily in illustration. It should take something like three to four years, but I'm already signed up for three courses: Materials and Media in Fine Art, Basics of Composition and Form, and Drawing Fundamentals.

I'm mostly really excited to get some real education in the fundamentals -- I've never had any sort of art education -- which totally shows, right? I take solace in the fact that I'm going into this with a heart scoured clean of hubris (thanks, fandom!), with the knowledge that I am going to be told that I am very, very bad and terrible and awful, and I actually kind of welcome it. I submit, o art school! Make me whole and perfect in Your image!

Okay, now the bad news. LASIK is really not working for me, you guys. I've done some shiftless complaining on Twitter, but here's the deal. I just passed the three month mark, which is supposed to be when people start to shake off the last bits of fog and get on with their lives. This is really not the case for me. In addition to the dry eyes which have been plaguing me since the beginning, I got an eye infection earlier this month that I'm still grappling with, and that's impeded my progress greatly. I can see finally, which is nice, but I can't read at a distance, and that's pretty disheartening. There's a lot of things to read in the world, from drive-thru menus to road signs to digital clocks and license plates, and my experience in the world is so incomplete now that just thinking about it makes me want to cry and scream and possibly never leave my room again.

At the clinic yesterday I heard the word 'regression' more times than I'm really comfortable with. But, infuriatingly, I can't seem to get a straight answer from them. Is it regression? Is it still dry eyes? Is it the infection that's holding me back? They talked about having me in again for a 'touch-up', such an innocuous word for the trauma of going through it all again, being blind and helpless and sore all over again. I told them no, I would sooner wear glasses than do it again. But maybe. If they did one eye at a time. But what if they fucked it up even worse? I only have so much cornea to spare.

Ugh, I get just nauseated with anger every time I think about it. I should end this entry on something happier.

Other than the gross LASIK stuff, my life is actually going pretty well! That's mostly due to the whole new boyfriend adventure, which has basically proven to be as wonderful and life-affirming and fulfilling and wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee as advertised on the tin. I don't even really have words for how incredible it is to finally be dating him after so long in each other's orbit -- I could go into some embarassing detail about the very specific points of incredibleness, but for the dignity of all involved, I'd better not. Suffice it to say, yrs trly is a very happy camper on that front.

I know I've been a little quiet in terms of art lately, and that's because I've been working on [livejournal.com profile] sho_no_tabi's Big Bang, which we're posting on February 9th. Long time fans of her universe will NOT be disappointed, which is all I can say about that. I laughed out loud, I cried real tears, it'll be a good show all around.